Current mood:

creative

Neurocam
Yep...I did it. I actually applied to Neurocam. If y'all wanna know what it is, just google it. It's..interesting. We'll see what comes of it. Prolly nothing. But this is my first assignment...everyone gets it, we'll see how it goes. I was just supposed to write down everything that happend on friday between 4 and 9 pm. I also had to include five pictures and explain how they represent how i perceive my life. dunno if i really did that..but we'll see what Mr. Reading things about it. haha...i googled him and came up with nothing. I still can't believe Neurocam is still in existance...guess there are plenty of people like me that are intrigued by the whole silly thing.


4:15- assembled a lamp for the office. We'd had enough of the fluorescent lights giving us migraines and the boss had had enough of us complaining and asking him to turn them off.

4:30- Finally left work...Fridays are always much too long for their own good.

4:45- Became increasingly annoyed at the traffic and serious lack of good drivers in the state of Florida. And of course, I react in typical American fashion with a bucketful of road rage.

5:00- Made it home. Soon as I got in the door, my roommate's dog came jumping all over me, all excited. He is the cutest ever, just a little annoying after a long day of work.

5:10- Dealt with the bills, finances and stuff. Never a fun time. Ever.

5:20- Changed into very comfy clothes which consist of sweat pants and a random t-shirt.

5:30- Surfed the net a bit. You know the usual stuff everybody does now a days. Check one's email...Do the Myspace thing and all that jazz.

6:00- Decided that taking a nap would be most beneficial, as I had gotten a total of three hours the previous night, all thanks to my lovely significant other. Also spent the day being emotionally exhausted and on the verge of tears also thanks to that certain someone. It was odd for me to take a nap...felt kind of drugged.

8:30- The phone call I'd been waiting for FINALLY came. Discussed some things that needed to be discussed and pretty much resolved everything that had made me miserable all day and suddenly I had tons of energy. That took up a good fourty-five minutes and made me happier than anything. :-)

Highlight of the day: file named highlight. I watched this movie later that night and at first thought it was super strange, but found it rather sweet and realistic.

Lowpoint of the day: file named lowpoint. Waiting for my phone to ring was the worst.

Picture titled 'chalkboard' represents how much I've had to erase things I've done and start all over. I haven't felt my age in years and am always insulted when people think of me as younger...they just don't understand how much I've had to deal with things and make things better.

Picture titled 'tissues' represents how all my life I've struggled with letting people see my emotions. When people see one's emotions you become vulnerable to them and they take advantage of that. Ironically, since I've been on my own I have cried more than in my entire life. Never in public, of course, but nevertheless I have let myself become more emotional and that's slightly disturbing, but refreshing in the same instance.

Picture titled 'chucks' represents my sentimental attachment to my childhood and the good times I've had with all my friends. Good memories are very important to me...They inspire me to create more happy times in order to have even more good memories.

Picture titled 'glasses' represents how my view on life is very different from that of others'. On the other hand, it also represents that I am always striving to see life through the eyes of everyone around me.

Picture titled 'time' represents how quickly time passes. There is never enough time in the day to get everything done and get enough sleep. On the other end of the spectrum, time is trapping me here...I feel trapped in that what I really want can't be mine yet because time has to bring certain things before I can have it. Time is truly a double-edged sword.