Current mood:	discontent
Current music:	Horse Tears by Goldfrapp

This song....
...is depressing me. But I'm in one of those moods where all I want is two be depressed. WTF?! I totally bought two pairs of shoes today and I'm depressed. Doesn't make much sense, really. Like, at all. I guess this interviewer from some online school (I don't even remember the name!) really got me down. I was on my way to the apt complex where I'm moving to sign some papers and he calls and he starts jabbering away and I keep thinking "this guy's pushy, but kinda cool" so I let him keep going. And going...And going. Finally, I saw Melinda go in and I'm like "Can we finish this later...i have to go sign some papers for my lease" and He's all "I don't think you're motivated at all, Cindy. I think you're a big fucking loser who isn't CUT OUT for fucking college" yeah, he didn't say that but that's pretty much how it felt. I then proceeded to tell him off fairly well, even though he was speaking over me like the true gentleman he REALLY is and then hung up. Now I have an interview/meeting with a lady from another school and I keep debating whether or not I should call and cancel it. I'm really discouraged and I feel like maybe I should wait a little longer for the college thing. I mean, I was hoping to start taking some online classes or something, but maybe I will just check out the local community college near my place and see if they've got night classes I can take. I most definitely wanna do the x-ray tech thing. But I know there are different ways, so we'll just see. And I'd like to not get myself tangled in loans, ya know? I've got enough debt to deal with at the moment. And an apartment. I mean, I know I'll get a good job outta this, but still. It's debt I don't NEED to be in. I can just take things slow and pay them off as the classes come around.