Current mood:	awake
Current music:	Afro by Erykah Badu

I was not looking for no love affair
So, I'm glad that I stopped having dreams about Shawn because they were getting obscenely obscene. I mean, what is with this whole having the best sex of my life with him? Stop with the subconscious thing!!!! RAWR. What would Freud say? Probably that I have this huge thing for Shawn and that I'm sexually frusterated and the fact that he's Adam's good friend and I'm having all these doubts about Adam and I as a couple that the next best(well, actually to be honest better) thing is Shawn. And since Shawn is kind of elusive and mysterious (only because we've only talked a few times) I'm unbelievably intrigued by him. Undoubtedly the same thing would happen with him, should he decide to go with my urges (and hopefully his natural male urges), eventually I would get bored with him as well. I'd like to think not, but it seems to be one of the patterns with me. The thing is, I actually met Shawn in real life before we started talking. Last night was comparable to a first date. You chat lightly, figure out what you have in common...see if you have fun with the person. I'd definitely like to "see" him again. And I think I intrigue him as much as he does me. Honestly, why else would he be paying me so much attention?